James 1:2-4

Don’t run from tests and hardships, brothers and sisters. As difficult as they are, you will ultimately find joy in them; if you embrace them, your faith will blossom under pressure and teach you true patience as you endure. And true patience brought on by endurance will equip you to complete the long journeyand cross the finish line—mature, complete, and wanting nothing. James 1:2-4D

Thursday, December 31, 2015

Living Under an Open Heaven

Do you know we live under an open heaven? I truly believe we do. What is that you might ask. What does an open heaven look like?

A pastor and fellow blog writer Bill Johnson with Bethel Church describes it as: "There's a nearness of Heaven on earth. There's a sense of presence, there's a clarity of thought, of heart and mind that is unusual. People think for themselves within an open heaven and aren't influenced by the spirit of the day or the spirit that seems to have dominance in a certain geographical area."

I believe that heaven has been open for us for a long time. God has an "open door" policy. If we would just embrace this truth, that there is an open door to heaven, we would begin to recognize the power of God that is available to those that believe. We would begin to walk out our lives so differently as His people.

Revelation 4:1 - After these things I looked, and behold, a door standing open in heaven, and the first voice which I had heard, like the sound of a trumpet speaking with me, said, "Come up here, and I will show you what must take place after these things."

In the Bible there are many examples of how the power flows back and forth from heaven.  We read how God's power flowed down to the earth as a dove and rested on Jesus and how it's power flowed back up to heaven as Jesus ascended back up to His father. Mathew 3:16 After being baptized, Jesus came up immediately from the water; and behold, the heavens were opened, and he saw the Spirit of God descending as a dove and lighting on Him.  Mark 16:19  After the Lord Jesus had spoken to them, he was taken up into heaven and he sat at the right hand of God.

I was blessed recently to buy a brand new car. How I came upon this vehicle is just a sign to me we live under an open heaven. I know buying a car seems like a strange example, but I believe God cares about every little thing in our life, and we need to recognize this power from heaven exists even when we go about the daily things of this world.  We need to see that we have and need this power from on High working in our lives everyday. Back to my story...

I had prayed and was believing for most of 2015 that I was going to get a new car this year. With only a few weeks left in 2015 I was beginning to wonder, then I won a spa day for my 10-year-old faithful little KIA Spectra. I laughed so hard when I climbed into a fully loaded 2016 SUV that they had loaned to me while my car had its spa day. God came through and answered my prayer I thought, here's my new car, too bad I only get to keep it for three days.

Later on that night, I shared a picture of my "new car" with my Facebook friends and declared what a funny God we serve and how I should be more specific when I pray.  A good friend of mine reminded me that 2015 wasn't over yet, and maybe I just needed go back to God with a more specific prayer and ask God for a car I can keep and include all the features, colour etc. So I made a mental list of my "new car" and then asked God again, "God I know you don't want me to go into debt again because you already told me you were going to cancel my debt next year, so maybe I shouldn't believe for a brand new car." I clearly heard him say to me, "My daughter you deserve whatever you want, because you are my daughter, a princess of the living King, don't worry I've got this covered, I'm still planning on cancelling your debt." So I prayed believing for a brand new car with all the bells and whistles.

That morning around five am, I awoke to a notification on my Facebook page. It was a message from a friend asking me if I was looking for a new car. I said that I was and she told me she mistakenly agreed to help her son acquire a 2015 Hyundai Accent and he had been unable to afford the insurance and gave the car back to her to deal with after only a few months of having it. I knew this friend didn't drive, so really had no use for a car, but worse I knew she was on disability and really could not afford this car and certainly not the $20,000+ debt she had been left with.

Right away I became excited, because the car I had prayed for was a Hyundai. "Lord is this my new car?" I prayed. I suggested to my friend I could perhaps take over the payments and take this car from her to help relieve her stress. We made arrangements to drive to the dealership together and see what they could do. On the way over to pick her up I prayed, "Lord if this is the car for me, let me know." All I heard God say was, "Cancel her debt." So I was pretty sure I was to take this car and burden from her.

As we drove her car to the dealership together, I just knew it wasn't the car God was going to bless me with. For one thing, it was blue and I had asked for a red car! I prayed to myself, "It's okay God, I will take this one if this is what you want me to have."

We arrived at the dealership and met with a bright, bubbly and very tall sales advisor, named Jonah who my friend had previously dealt with. We soon discovered that I couldn't just take over the payments, he suggested if we wanted to do this we could set up a private business arrangement where I gave her the money each month and she paid the loan payment. I knew this wasn't the wise way to go and I knew God just wanted me to cancel her debt. So I turned to the sales advisor and said, " Yeah, that's not gonna work, I've actually been planning on getting a new car anyway, can I assume her debt and then trade this car in for a new car?"  Then I said, "I've prayed for a new car in 2015." He looked at me and said, "Oh, are you a Christian?'  I said, "Yup!" And then he said, "So am I."  I knew in that moment  that the God of the open heaven was real and was right in the middle of all this and that I was hearing directly from Him about this whole situation. Turns out we even attended the same church - go figure!  So began the adventure!

We started to look through the showroom for my new car. After checking out a few - we finally arrived at a shiny brand new 2016 "RED" Hyundai Elantra. I stood behind it and prayed and ask God what He thought even though I was already pretty sure this was it. Jonah, began to rattle off the features, and one by one he hit every thing on my list, including the front and back heated rear seats (a must have with teenage twins). Now, I'm one of those fortunate ones, who feels the physical presence of the Holy Spirit, so my body was on fire and all of me was beginning to shake, in fact I was ready to run around the dealership hooting and hollering, but I did what I could to keep it to a minimal excitement. I just knew this was the car God had for me, now off to buy it and a visit to the finance manager.

Noah whisked me over to his desk and as he took my information he said, "You are gonna test drive it before you buy it right?" I laughed and said, "Why yes, I guess I should." Even though I knew it was the car I was the to buy.

He crunched the numbers and advised me because the car I was trading in still had a large debt and no equity there was a deficit equity - I would be taking on some of my friends debt to help her out of this predicament.  He said with an uncertain look on his face, "Are you sure you want to do this?"  He showed me how much and my flesh rose up and said, "No way, you're not gonna do this!" Then I heard God's voice again say, "Cancel the debt!" So I said, "Yup I'm doing it, but is there any wiggle room on this car, can you help lower the deficit? "I'm trying to help someone out here." I literally begged. So he sent us back to the sales department and I prayed, "Lord help me out here."

Back at the sales department, we shared with Jonah the full story of my friend's predicament and how she was just trying to reconcile with her estranged son and never thought he'd leave her with this car. Jonah said, "I get it, I understand because I'm a Christian, I know why you are doing this, but I have to say this is blowing me away. I'm usually a tough nut to crack, I'm pretty choked up, this is incredible, I will see what I can do." So he went off to the sales manager and my friend and I grabbed hands and prayed.

When Jonah returned, he offered some concessions including a very low-interest rate ( I had taken on a higher rate from her loan).  This new interest rate almost lowered the interest to nothing, and a few other things were given to me, including a free year of service for the car. They weren't able to completely lower the deficit from my friends loan, but it helped considerably. I was happy and I knew that he had done his best to help.

Jonah suggested perhaps my friend could pay me a little every month to help with the deficit. The Lord, brought to my mind the story (in Mathew 18) of the slave who owed his master a huge amount and the owner forgave him after he begged for mercy.  The slave went away and when someone who owed him a much smaller debt came to him he refused to forgive his debt.  He was thrown in jail when his master found out and he did not forgive his debt.

God said to me, "Cancel her debt, because I've already cancelled your debt, a bigger debt than hers."  I know this verse is speaking about forgiveness, but I knew God was showing her mercy for her poor judgement and was using me to help forgive her of this financial burden and maybe even for her poor judgement and for not praying first and asking God if she should do this. I knew I wasn't to have any sort of business arrangement with her. I looked over to her and shared this scripture and then said, "Your debt is cancelled."   She said, "Thank you, thank you so much!"  We all knew quietly without speaking in that moment the true nature of the spiritual debt Jesus had cancelled for us all.

What I did makes no sense in the natural world, but in the spiritual realm I choose to do this and I'm trusting because I gave to help a friend in need and because God cancelled her debt through me, He will also cancel my financial debt. Jonah was visibly shaken up. He said, "This is incredible, what you are doing, you don't know what a testimony of God's love this is.  None of the staff here can believe you are doing this."  I said, "I'm doing this because God loves my friend, and he loves them too. Tell them God is real and he just performed a Christmas miracle.  He cancelled my friends $20,000+ debt.  Yesterday she was distraught with this burden, today she is free.   Jonah said, "Oh you know I will!"  I felt the praises of the angels rise up to God as they ascended up through the open portal to heaven in that moment.

The next day, I picked up my brand new 2016 Red Elantra which my daughter Emily has since so beautifully named Ruby red (just Red for short). The colour red by the way is my favorite colour, but I realized the day I purchased it, that it also represents the shed blood of Jesus which he shed for all. Now every time I look at this car it reminds me of this fact, and I smile and feel so blessed.

I'm no one special (except in God's eyes of course).  I didn't do anything that any other Christian can't do when they walk in step with God and walk in the reality of an open heaven and it's power to do the miraculous for someone.  It is available to every believer down here.  The portal isn't closed, we all can do supernatural things, like forgiving someone who has hurt us really badly.  Or like me,  help God forgive someones financial debt. We can even heal the sick or deliver someone from evil when we tap into this power from heaven and pray in the name of Jesus.   On earth as it is in heaven, it's a reality not just nice words we pray....

May the truth of this testimony strengthen your faith today and may you know the power that comes from Jesus and walk in the power of this open heaven everyday.  It flows back and forth to each one of us when we live and walk in it.  I believe the more we walk in it, the more it can manifest on earth and touch a dark world that is so in need God visible power and presence.  With love,   Laura

 

Monday, December 28, 2015

The Sleeping Giant

I attended a healing and deliverance training conference lead by Bill Perkins at the end of November 2015. At the end of the conference I believe the Lord gave me the following message regarding the Body of Christ (the Church). I actually received a word very similar to this one but it was ten years ago, I will have to see if I can dig it out and post it. Laura~

November 30, 2015

The sleeping giant is waking up. You want revival it's coming - a great anointing like you've never seen before. Prepare your camps because as the sleeping wake up, as they take there first breath they will need help, they will need, Holy Spirit medicine, they will need to be healed.

Many are already awake and aware and have received personal revival in their own lives. They will be the Holy Spirit medics to take care of the awakened, the sick and the almost dead. You need to keep equipping others as they are set free.

There will be many outside the body who will come also. You will need to nurse them also. It is another great awakening. The church must be unified. The body of Christ is one, I created it that way. You need to work together not apart. Share your ideas, your resources.

Think of it like a huge disaster coming, you will have many injured, in need of care. Are you ready? Are you equipped? I am dismantling the Church as you know it - not in a destructive way but in a healthy way beneficial way. I am still the head physician. Iam the healer, you are the assistants.

Let me organize you, trust me. Let go of your need to organize everything. Godly order is what I call for not religion and tradition. Things are changing they must, I need you to trust and obey and do not fear for I go before you.

The portal of heaven is about to open and many will know the time has come. Trust and obey as I make all things right.

Romans 13:11-14 New King James Version (NKJV)

Put on Christ
And do this, knowing the time, that now it is high time to awake out of sleep; for now our salvation is nearer than when we first believed. 12 The night is far spent, the day is at hand. Therefore let us cast off the works of darkness, and let us put on the armor of light. 13 Let us walk properly, as in the day, not in revelry and drunkenness, not in lewdness and lust, not in strife and envy. 14 But put on the Lord Jesus Christ, and make no provision for the flesh, to fulfill its lusts.

Thursday, May 28, 2015

Hello!

Welcome to my webpage and blog! I've created this blog as a creative outlet to share my thoughts, revelations, prophetic words and understanding of the amazing God we serve. I welcome your comments and interaction with my blog. Thanks and God Bless! Laura~

Monday, April 13, 2015

Is Emotional Health Real?

I've been pondering this thought, is emotional health real?  Is anyone really emotionally healthy? Or is our emotional health just a mask that we wear in order to convince ourselves and others we are okay?

I read this book once about relationships and how to avoid falling in love with emotionally unhealthy people.  The author suggests before making that leap into love there are two things you should look for:

  • Is this person physically and emotionally available? (meaning they are not in a relationship that is providing them physical or emotional nuturing) Okay that makes sense.
  • Are they reasonally emotionally healthy. Really? Okay now I ponder.
He goes onto say that falling in love is like a moment of temporary insanity.  You know that honeymoon period where you are swept off your feet.  He says it's in that moment in time that you have to watch for red flags and not allow yourself to be swept up in delusion.  Okay I get that.  He says that if they seem too good to be true and if there is even one thing that gives you pause about their emotional health, even if its something small, that you shouldn't ignore it, but really question if this person is for you.  Hmmm.  That criteria would disqualify a lot of people, even me at times.

So I ponder this question,  What is emotional health anyway?  Not just for any future suitor, but for myself and whether or not I even consider myself emotionally healthy.  I had to honestly ask myself the question, am I emotionally healthy according to the standard set out in that book and am I emotionally healthy enough to be in a relationship?

I agree with the author that there are truly some very emotionally unhealthy people out there, and there are red flags one should look for when choosing a potential new mate that probably shouldn't be ignored.  Some people really are not able to give or receive love in a healthy way and this ultimately could lead to a toxic relationship with certain doom.  But.... what about the "average Joe or Jane"? Is anyone really emotionally healthy?  If we are honest we will have to say no - no one truly is at least not 100% of the time and maybe that's okay.  Maybe that's just a normal part of being human.

I know for myself I've had varying degrees of emotional health over my lifetime and often it's been at it's worst when I was not dealing well with life and my "stuff".   A big part of my healing journey has been those times when I allowed myself to be a bit of an emotional mess and I began to deal with why my emotional health wasn't so stable.

I recently completed the Emotional Healthy Spirituality course at my church.  We read the book with the same name written by Peter Scazzero.  In his book he says that, “emotional health and spiritual maturity are inseparable. It is not possible to be spiritually mature while remaining emotionally immature.”   He suggests that there are varying degrees of emtional healthiness and as we deal with our "stuff" we not only grow emotionally but also spiritually.  

He suggests in order to grow emotionally we must deal with our past, not for the sake of dwelling, but to face it in order that we can move forward and grow into an emotionally healthy people.  We also learned that there are these "wall" moments.  Incredible times of pain and suffering that God allows in order to wake us up emotionally and spiritually.  These times of our life are intentional--they are there to cause us to mature as human beings.

Yesterday in church the pastor preached a sermon on suffering.  He shared that there are two types of suffering therapeutic and destructive suffering.  Destructive pain is a result of human sinful desires and is sometimes forced upon us by others, or we bring it on with our own destructive behavior.  Therapeautic pain, is good pain (although it might not feel like it) but it brings with it emotional and spiritual growth. He suggested that when we learn to diagnose the different types and also realize that suffering is a normal part of life; it's in those times of suffering that we actually grow.  Hmmm!  I think I see a repeating theme here.
The truth of the matter is that suffering is a normal part of our lives and we must learn to accept that. One way is to develop your emotional intelligence.  Wikipedia defines emotional intelligence as the ability to monitor your own and others emotions in order to label them appropriately and use emotional information to guide your thinking and behavior.

Emotions are real.  They are not our enemy, there is a reason why God made us emotional people. Emotions are the fibres that allow us to connect to other humans.  However, emotions if we dwell on them too long and believe everything they tell us, can cause us to stay stuck in our "stuff" longer than we need to. 

There are going to be times in our lives that we have setbacks and may not be as emotionally healthy as we would like to be.  The challenge in life is how do I deal with my emotions and not let them completely paralyze or define me. We need to face the truth that suffering is a part of life and that it does lead to emotional and spiritual health.  

I challenge you to embrace whatever it is that your facing today, recognize that it is a part of this journey called life.  Just know, it doesn't make you a good or bad person, it just is.  Life sends us these things in order to wake us up, teach us and then grow us.  Life is our teacher.  Your job is to discern why is this happening, why do I feel this way, ask yourself, "What is this experience here to teach me?"  

Many blessings as you journey along life's road!

“I learned to love the fool in me. The one who feels too much, talks too much, takes too many chances, wins sometimes & loses often, lacks self-control, loves & hates, hurts & gets hurt, promises & breaks promises, laughs & cries.”  ― Theodore Isaac Rubin





Is Emotional Health Real?

I've been pondering this thought, is emotional health real?  Is anyone really emotionally healthy? Or is our emotional health just a mask that we wear in order to convince ourselves and others we are okay?

I read this book once about relationships and how to avoid falling in love with emotionally unhealthy people.  The author suggests before making that leap into love there are two things you should look for:

  • Is this person physically and emotionally available? (meaning they are not in a relationship that is providing them physical or emotional nuturing) Okay that makes sense.
  • Are they reasonally emotionally healthy. Really? Okay now I ponder.
He goes onto say that falling in love is like a moment of temporary insanity.  You know that honeymoon period where you are swept off your feet.  He says it's in that moment in time that you have to watch for red flags and not allow yourself to be swept up in delusion.  Okay I get that.  He says that if they seem too good to be true and if there is even one thing that gives you pause about their emotional health, even if its something small, that you shouldn't ignore it, but really question if this person is for you.  Hmmm.  That criteria would disqualify a lot of people, even me at times.

So I ponder this question,  What is emotional health anyway?  Not just for any future suitor, but for myself and whether or not I even consider myself emotionally healthy.  I had to honestly ask myself the question, am I emotionally healthy according to the standard set out in that book and am I emotionally healthy enough to be in a relationship?

I agree with the author that there are truly some very emotionally unhealthy people out there, and there are red flags one should look for when choosing a potential new mate that probably shouldn't be ignored.  Some people really are not able to give or receive love in a healthy way and this ultimately could lead to a toxic relationship with certain doom.  But.... what about the "average Joe or Jane"? Is anyone really emotionally healthy?  If we are honest we will have to say no - no one truly is at least not 100% of the time and maybe that's okay.  Maybe that's just a normal part of being human.

I know for myself I've had varying degrees of emotional health over my lifetime and often it's been at it's worst when I was not dealing well with life and my "stuff".   A big part of my healing journey has been those times when I allowed myself to be a bit of an emotional mess and I began to deal with why my emotional health wasn't so stable.

I recently completed the Emotional Healthy Spirituality course at my church.  We read the book with the same name written by Peter Scazzero.  In his book he says that, “emotional health and spiritual maturity are inseparable. It is not possible to be spiritually mature while remaining emotionally immature.”   He suggests that there are varying degrees of emtional healthiness and as we deal with our "stuff" we not only grow emotionally but also spiritually.  

He suggests in order to grow emotionally we must deal with our past, not for the sake of dwelling, but to face it in order that we can move forward and grow into an emotionally healthy people.  We also learned that there are these "wall" moments.  Incredible times of pain and suffering that God allows in order to wake us up emotionally and spiritually.  These times of our life are intentional--they are there to cause us to mature as human beings.

Yesterday in church the pastor preached a sermon on suffering.  He shared that there are two types of suffering therapeutic and destructive suffering.  Destructive pain is a result of human sinful desires and is sometimes forced upon us by others, or we bring it on with our own destructive behavior.  Therapeautic pain, is good pain (although it might not feel like it) but it brings with it emotional and spiritual growth. He suggested that when we learn to diagnose the different types and also realize that suffering is a normal part of life; it's in those times of suffering that we actually grow.  Hmmm!  I think I see a repeating theme here.
The truth of the matter is that suffering is a normal part of our lives and we must learn to accept that. One way is to develop your emotional intelligence.  Wikipedia defines emotional intelligence as the ability to monitor your own and others emotions in order to label them appropriately and use emotional information to guide your thinking and behavior.

Emotions are real.  They are not our enemy, there is a reason why God made us emotional people. Emotions are the fibres that allow us to connect to other humans.  However, emotions if we dwell on them too long and believe everything they tell us, can cause us to stay stuck in our "stuff" longer than we need to. 

There are going to be times in our lives that we have setbacks and may not be as emotionally healthy as we would like to be.  The challenge in life is how do I deal with my emotions and not let them completely paralyze or define me. We need to face the truth that suffering is a part of life and that it does lead to emotional and spiritual health.  

I challenge you to embrace whatever it is that your facing today, recognize that it is a part of this journey called life.  Just know, it doesn't make you a good or bad person, it just is.  Life sends us these things in order to wake us up, teach us and then grow us.  Life is our teacher.  Your job is to discern why is this happening, why do I feel this way, ask yourself, "What is this experience here to teach me?"  

Many blessings as you journey along life's road!

“I learned to love the fool in me. The one who feels too much, talks too much, takes too many chances, wins sometimes & loses often, lacks self-control, loves & hates, hurts & gets hurt, promises & breaks promises, laughs & cries.”  ― Theodore Isaac Rubin





Saturday, April 11, 2015

For Sheila

I couldn't think of a better reason to start blogging again but to pay homeage to my dear friend Sheila who went home to Jesus today!  Love you my forever friend!

My dear friend Sheila passed away today.  Our relationship right from the beginning was a spiritual partnership.  I knew she was destined to be a pivotal part of my spiritual growth.  She herself recovering from life’s hurts, habits and hang ups, was called by God into the lives of many in this way not just mine.  It was obvious to me from our first conversation that she was called of God to help others recover from life’s painful pathways.  She was a gifted teacher but so humble in her nature.  She taught that pain was an inevitable part of the healing journey.  A strong woman of conviction, never pretending to know it all, just willing to share the many truths she had learned along her own bumpy roads. 

She never told me what to do, or condemned me for any of my many stumbles; she just always listened intently and then offered her own wisdom from her own journey.  Then ever so sweetly she would remind me of the gift of life I already possessed deep down inside of me.  She reminded me of my worth and that the love I longed so desperately to find; was already mine – living deep on the inside of my heart, and was always there the moment I asked Jesus into it.

She spoke of her own salvation story and her strength and willingness to go on rang out loud and clear in all the tales of her journeys that she shared.  She knew she wasn’t perfect and that she never would be until she met her Lord face to face, but she faced her broken nature with the grace and understanding of a true princess.  She served her King with all her heart.  She understood her purpose in this life was to love others well and to share her journey of survival with those who hurt.  She loved well…

She knew what it meant to be someone’s spiritual companion and she valued the relationships she was given with all her heart.  She knew it was her job to challenge those frightened part of ourselves that we hide so well from the rest of the world.  If she saw things in you that were hindering your spiritual growth she wasn’t afraid to tell you and she always did so in love.

Sheila understood, maybe not consciously but in her spirit; that each and every person God brought into her life to minister to; was for the deeper evolution of both their souls and her job was to bring those she loved closer to God.  She was a willing vessel and God so eloquently poured out His Spirit on her—he anointed her with the power to heal a human soul.  I am forever grateful that God chose her and I to be connected in this deep, meaningful, spiritual connection that we shared.  She taught me so much and I will forever be grateful for these things.  Here are some of the things she taught me:
  •  That life is precious
  •   I am exactly who and what God designed me to be
  •  I am worthy of his love
  • That it’s okay to be broken
  • That acceptance is the pathway to peace
  • You must love God first, then yourself, before you can truly give and receive love well
  •  I am beautiful just as I am
  • I can be vulnerable and take my masks off; and that those that truly care will still love me
  • Love sometimes hurts but it’s never abusive
  •  I can trust my heart
  •  I am not my past
  • To love and be love is our greatest calling
  • Death is not the end only the beginning
Rest in peace my forever friend.  I’m sure you’ve already heard this from the Lord himself, but may I also say on behalf of all that you loved and that loved you, “Well done my good and faithful servant!”

2 Corinthians 5:6-8 So we are always of good courage. We know that while we are at home in the body we are away from the Lord, for we walk by faith, not by sight. Yes, we are of good courage, and we would rather be away from the body and at home with the Lord.


For Sheila

I couldn't think of a better reason to start blogging again but to pay homeage to my dear friend Sheila who went home to Jesus today!  Love you my forever friend!

My dear friend Sheila passed away today.  Our relationship right from the beginning was a spiritual partnership.  I knew she was destined to be a pivotal part of my spiritual growth.  She herself recovering from life’s hurts, habits and hang ups, was called by God into the lives of many in this way not just mine.  It was obvious to me from our first conversation that she was called of God to help others recover from life’s painful pathways.  She was a gifted teacher but so humble in her nature.  She taught that pain was an inevitable part of the healing journey.  A strong woman of conviction, never pretending to know it all, just willing to share the many truths she had learned along her own bumpy roads. 

She never told me what to do, or condemned me for any of my many stumbles; she just always listened intently and then offered her own wisdom from her own journey.  Then ever so sweetly she would remind me of the gift of life I already possessed deep down inside of me.  She reminded me of my worth and that the love I longed so desperately to find; was already mine – living deep on the inside of my heart, and was always there the moment I asked Jesus into it.

She spoke of her own salvation story and her strength and willingness to go on rang out loud and clear in all the tales of her journeys that she shared.  She knew she wasn’t perfect and that she never would be until she met her Lord face to face, but she faced her broken nature with the grace and understanding of a true princess.  She served her King with all her heart.  She understood her purpose in this life was to love others well and to share her journey of survival with those who hurt.  She loved well…

She knew what it meant to be someone’s spiritual companion and she valued the relationships she was given with all her heart.  She knew it was her job to challenge those frightened part of ourselves that we hide so well from the rest of the world.  If she saw things in you that were hindering your spiritual growth she wasn’t afraid to tell you and she always did so in love.

Sheila understood, maybe not consciously but in her spirit; that each and every person God brought into her life to minister to; was for the deeper evolution of both their souls and her job was to bring those she loved closer to God.  She was a willing vessel and God so eloquently poured out His Spirit on her—he anointed her with the power to heal a human soul.  I am forever grateful that God chose her and I to be connected in this deep, meaningful, spiritual connection that we shared.  She taught me so much and I will forever be grateful for these things.  Here are some of the things she taught me:
  •  That life is precious
  •   I am exactly who and what God designed me to be
  •  I am worthy of his love
  • That it’s okay to be broken
  • That acceptance is the pathway to peace
  • You must love God first, then yourself, before you can truly give and receive love well
  •  I am beautiful just as I am
  • I can be vulnerable and take my masks off; and that those that truly care will still love me
  • Love sometimes hurts but it’s never abusive
  •  I can trust my heart
  •  I am not my past
  • To love and be love is our greatest calling
  • Death is not the end only the beginning
Rest in peace my forever friend.  I’m sure you’ve already heard this from the Lord himself, but may I also say on behalf of all that you loved and that loved you, “Well done my good and faithful servant!”

2 Corinthians 5:6-8 So we are always of good courage. We know that while we are at home in the body we are away from the Lord, for we walk by faith, not by sight. Yes, we are of good courage, and we would rather be away from the body and at home with the Lord.